Wednesday, September 24, 2008
just another day
I am exhausted. Not just tonight. Always. I feel like I am constantly being pulled in thirty-two directions at once. I don't know what to do half the time, but roll with it. School is ok, but I never feel prepared because I never have time to study or even look at whatever we did previous class. I am cranky and I am sure not much fun to be around. I was falling asleep rocking babies to sleep today at work. I wanted to crawl onto the floor and take a nap so bad I almost cried. My house is a disaster, our dryer still isn't fixed because we can't afford it and there is always laundry everywhere. My kids are always cranky because they have to get up so early, but they take forever to get to sleep. Simeon is forced to take a nap he doesn't need at daycare and so is up all night. Alice is just cranky. I have been having braxton hicks contractions for three days now that are supposedly normal, but my mind just doesn't ease the same anymore. I hope this goes away because I can't last four more months with contractions everyday. I know part of it is I am just doing so much, but staying off my feet isn't exactly practical. I laughed at the nurse when she said that. I just don't know anymore. I think I am just a zombie waiting for each day to pass to start the new one.